The days of month ago

It seems open the school few days ago.
But actually it's already the the sixth weeks I have been at Sarawak.
Too many things were happened during these while.

Staying alone outside from the university.
Was quite afraid that I couldn't used to it and emo all the time.
Fortunately, I have learn to be more independent.
I'm not so scare when I'm walking alone along the way 'home'.
It doesn't seem to be that lonely that what I had thought.
My new housemates are very nice and good.
They always having jokes and play around by picking the right time.
They always looks busy with the church activities and their studies.
However, there will be delicious dinner prepared every night I get home.
This is making me not so serious homesick and cheering up my days.

In this new semester, I have tried to join different group of friends.
I'm feeling more secure and fun when I'm mixing with different bunch of friends.
Although I just keep quiet or keep laughing beside at most of the time.
This probably because I'm not fixing myself in a small circle with 1 to 7 girls anymore.
I'm no longer need to assort and tolerate most of the time but responsible to myself.

Being honest, I couldn't cope with my studies as the given notes were so messy all the time.
Non-printed notes for me to jot the main points always making me fall asleep terribly.
Trying few ways to waken myself and concentrate in class but failed every time.
I can only stay awake when the topic is interested.
This make me feeling stress and blur after every class.

Tend to talk more with him.
I wish I can believe every single words he said to me.
Unfortunately, there are quite a few rumours fluctuating me.
Asked few friends for advice.
Most of them advised me not to believe.
Some of them advised me to observe more before making decision.

Choose to believe you once again by observing more.
Choose to believe is not stupid.
Giving up the chances is stupid.
I just don't want to be regret.
As you know, the truth is hurt.
But when it is only a lie, it's even more than double hurt.
About believe, is always the words that you are wishing to listen.

Hopefully, this is the right choice I made.
Please don't disappoint me.

s/p:
Well, I'm using my broken English.
Please don't laugh at me since I'm trying my very best to practice and learn.
Hope you are understand. ^^