H's value

There are A, B, C, D, E, F...R.
Hurting by F and R.
Giving up all my activities and sports because of your R existence.
Arrival of T with encourages.
Come along with L, brings advice and positive thoughts.
Always acting as a unnecessary rubbish bins for me to scold and cry.
Brothers and sisters with S, T, U, V, X, Y, Z...
Leaving of T makes me lacking of confidences.
Friends around.
Acting cheer and cool.
Accompany by L is the only dependent.
Appear of a S and a J.
Fool and crap with.
Happiness is not absence everyday.
Knowing about H.
Understanding is always lacking.
Confuses and sadness always there to upset me.
Rejection is a good choice.
Avoiding these confuses and loneliness.
Once rejected is reject forever which is unexpected.
Approaching by S brings happiness but not love.
Jealousy of H hurts my feeling.
Blur relationship.
Emotional feelings.
Complicated emotion.
Only you tend to be.
Only you.